existing on the introversion – extroversion spectrum

I just read Lifehack’s 19 Real Life Examples of An Extroverted Introvert So You Don’t Get Confused. It’s an interesting topic. I never thought of myself as an introvert until more recent years. I’ve always enjoyed conversation and people. And then, I have this memory of being with my mother, and how someone was noting how I wasn’t talking – we were at the grocery store, … Continue reading existing on the introversion – extroversion spectrum

being dismissed … things that irk

There is a feeling of discomfort that comes with being dismissed as “new-agey” “hippy-dippy” etc. Someone on my Facebook feed posted this article: New Age Roommate Has A Crystal For That Which promptly got a series of likes from dudes, and “LOL” type comments. Being that the comments were from dudes and this article was about a lady, I am questioning how much of the … Continue reading being dismissed … things that irk

Being productive, and people wanting things from you

Fibromyalgia is exhausting to have. That exhaustion permeates every aspect of my life. It’s always accompanied by its BFF, pain, and dealing with both of them all the time is difficult. It’s kind of like they’re people I have to care for and plan my life around, even though I really don’t want to. I experience a lot of guilt, because of my personality type, … Continue reading Being productive, and people wanting things from you

for the haters in my circle

There’s this whole thing about how the internet isn’t real. I get it. If you remove the internet from our lives, it doesn’t effectively change who we are. But it is a real extension of ourselves. It’s our knowledge and connection. It’s lots of invisible things that are really important to us in some way, individually, or collectively. So it’s not really separate. We can’t … Continue reading for the haters in my circle

a fire inside

“Will the flood behind me, put out the fire inside me?” No music seems to contemplate the eternal struggles of my existence so much as that by AFI. I have felt this so deeply, so many times. Feeling everything so deeply, in fact, that you wonder if it will swallow you whole and you’ll just cease to exist? Will the vast mass of tedious and … Continue reading a fire inside

on staying wild and true

Like many introverts, my inner world is deep and well developed. I see myself as that person. I think that others see glimpses of me. They know certain things, have a sense of others…but I realize that I do not present, always, as deeply as I exist. I think the reason people come to me in times of crisis, is because this is where I … Continue reading on staying wild and true

loss is deep, but love is exponential

My nephew passed away today. He was 3.  He had a lot of complications throughout his short life – but you know what was completely uncomplicated? All the love. My amazing niece sat in my lap and read this to me today. It’s a beautiful book, and while it was to help her and her brother with understanding, it was comforting to me as well. … Continue reading loss is deep, but love is exponential

favorite playlist – deep dark indie

Need some hauntingly beautiful melodies to vibe with your melancholic mood? A few of my favorites on the list are: Arsonist’s Lullaby by Hozier | Come Find Me by Emile Hainie, Lykki Li, & Romy | Depraved by Mammals | Don’t Wanna Be Your Girl by Wet | Station by Lapsley | Waiting Game by Banks Continue reading favorite playlist – deep dark indie

accepting pain and the unknown

It happened again this morning. I was thinking about working from a coffee shop today. Sounds easy enough, right? Not when you’re chronically ill, and highly sensitive. You have to consider a lot of things that other people don’t. Like, I typically like coffee shop environments. They’re made to be comfortable, and workable. The ambiance is something I can work with for a while. I … Continue reading accepting pain and the unknown

honoring the things that suck

Life can be unbelievably painful and ridiculous. And a lot of times, because people feel bad about what you’re going through, they don’t want to acknowledge it. It makes them uncomfortable to see you suffer. While it’s good that people don’t want you to suffer, it doesn’t mean that you won’t. It doesn’t mean that they can slap a platitude onto it and make it … Continue reading honoring the things that suck