existing on the introversion – extroversion spectrum

I just read Lifehack’s 19 Real Life Examples of An Extroverted Introvert So You Don’t Get Confused. It’s an interesting topic. I never thought of myself as an introvert until more recent years. I’ve always enjoyed conversation and people. And then, I have this memory of being with my mother, and how someone was noting how I wasn’t talking – we were at the grocery store, … Continue reading existing on the introversion – extroversion spectrum

Messages from wolves.

This morning, in a sleepy state, I read my card of the day. The Ace of Swords, reversed: Clarity, balanced mind, precise thoughts. Time for organizing, planning, making decisions I’ve been putting off. This card suggests an epiphany about a matter in which I didn’t know what to do, a realization of how to make something manifest. Since the card is reversed, I’m feeling it directed, … Continue reading Messages from wolves.

Being productive, and people wanting things from you

Fibromyalgia is exhausting to have. That exhaustion permeates every aspect of my life. It’s always accompanied by its BFF, pain, and dealing with both of them all the time is difficult. It’s kind of like they’re people I have to care for and plan my life around, even though I really don’t want to. I experience a lot of guilt, because of my personality type, … Continue reading Being productive, and people wanting things from you

Yin Yoga: Hip Sequence

I was in SO much pain this morning, everything was so tight. I knew I needed to find something different to really stretch those tight side/back/hip muscles. Smart phones + pinterest are amazing things. In under a minute, I had a good looking sequence to try out – the pictures and descriptions seemed easy enough to figure out. The first part is similar to what … Continue reading Yin Yoga: Hip Sequence

a fire inside

“Will the flood behind me, put out the fire inside me?” No music seems to contemplate the eternal struggles of my existence so much as that by AFI. I have felt this so deeply, so many times. Feeling everything so deeply, in fact, that you wonder if it will swallow you whole and you’ll just cease to exist? Will the vast mass of tedious and … Continue reading a fire inside

on staying wild and true

Like many introverts, my inner world is deep and well developed. I see myself as that person. I think that others see glimpses of me. They know certain things, have a sense of others…but I realize that I do not present, always, as deeply as I exist. I think the reason people come to me in times of crisis, is because this is where I … Continue reading on staying wild and true

loss is deep, but love is exponential

My nephew passed away today. He was 3.  He had a lot of complications throughout his short life – but you know what was completely uncomplicated? All the love. My amazing niece sat in my lap and read this to me today. It’s a beautiful book, and while it was to help her and her brother with understanding, it was comforting to me as well. … Continue reading loss is deep, but love is exponential

accepting pain and the unknown

It happened again this morning. I was thinking about working from a coffee shop today. Sounds easy enough, right? Not when you’re chronically ill, and highly sensitive. You have to consider a lot of things that other people don’t. Like, I typically like coffee shop environments. They’re made to be comfortable, and workable. The ambiance is something I can work with for a while. I … Continue reading accepting pain and the unknown

honoring the things that suck

Life can be unbelievably painful and ridiculous. And a lot of times, because people feel bad about what you’re going through, they don’t want to acknowledge it. It makes them uncomfortable to see you suffer. While it’s good that people don’t want you to suffer, it doesn’t mean that you won’t. It doesn’t mean that they can slap a platitude onto it and make it … Continue reading honoring the things that suck

NURTURING

Today is day 12 of the #modernmysticchallenge, and the prompt is NURTURING. I’ve been drawing one card every day so far, but I wanted more insight on today’s concept. I focused on asking three things regarding nurturing: 1- What do I need to nurture within myself? 4 of swords 2- What needs nurtured regarding the situation? 10 of swords (reversed) 3 – What do I … Continue reading NURTURING